About being a true writer.
I’m reading now a French book of Jean-Philippe
Toussant “L’urgence et la patience”. What does it mean to be a writer, how is
it to write books? Actually, I think it’s about being an artist in general,
being a creator. “L’urgence” is what some people call “inspiration”, some
people say it’s when you just can’t keep silence, when you NEED to write.
Though Toussaint doesn’t like this definition, because “inspiration” is about
being passive, when you sit and just wait for the inspiration without any
attempts to work. And “l’urgence” is about being active, great talents are
nothing without work, without practicing, without tries and faults, without
disappointments and discoveries. That’s why you need “la patience” as well to
be a writer.
It reminded me of myself when I was a teenager and was writing
short stories and poems. I was sure that the whole point is to have an
inspiration – when I thought I had it, I just closed myself in my room and was
writing for the whole day without talking to my parents, and barely eating.
When the story was done, I almost never corrected it again, even if my parents
say that there are places to review. Now, re-reading my teenage stories I
realize that I could have done a better job if I would work, if I would have
“la patience” to reread, to correct, to work more on getting information about
certain things instead of making it up. What I know now is that a writer should
have a big social experience and to be an erudite, to know a lot of things from
different areas. Being a writer is probably even one of the hardest jobs,
because it’s connected with a creativity which is vague and very subjective
thing. Sometimes it brings a huge satisfaction and happiness, while at the
other moments it could bring a big frustration. So being a true writer is about
being brave and strong to stand the test.
About being a true magician
Yesterday I watched “Life is beautiful”, Italian movie
about… Well, if I say about Second World War in Italy, I won’t be absolutely
correct. Because it’s not only about war, it’s even not mostly about war. It’s
about magic in life, magic which is created by love. The main character is a
guy who always does simple miracles to impress his future wife at first and
then to make his family (wife and a little son) happy. As an adult you
understand that there is nothing miraculous about these “moving tables” or “keys
dropped from the heaven” (this guy was just very attentive and was able to use
right moments and to make them look unusual) but we believe him like kids and
see a life as a wonderful and happy moment.
The main character is just a person
who notices a bright side of the life and shows it to those who are around him.
Such people save the world even when it’s falling apart. In a concentration
camp he continues creating a wonderful world for his son, making him believe
that everything what is happening with them is just a game. His miracles save
his son’s and his wife’s lives. While such people exist, our world won’t
disappear in the pain, fear and death. Such people keep our belief in miracles,
in love and in originality of our life. That is a true magic.
About being a true person
Today my grandma had guests. We were in the house when
suddenly a lot of people appeared in our courtyard – several kids from the
local Secondary School and two teachers with them. Kids wore blue field caps,
one boy carried flowers and all of them looked very decent. Teachers know my
grandma and brought this class to meet her and to take her take under their
patronage. So one of the teachers said: “Kids, this woman is a respectful
teacher of our village, she worked for more than 30 years in your school. She
is also a wife of the war hero from our village and thanks to her we have this
great, interesting museum about war in our region. We are taking her under our
patronage and you should come here to help her with everything she’ll need”. In
the evening I was looking through old pictures my grandma showed me. It was so
impressive, firstly, because of being so old that you could see such pictures
and documents only in the museum. And here you have it in your hands and it’s
about your grand grandfather. Some documents are dated by the end of the 19th
century! Secondly, I was looking at these pictures with my grandfather who is
in military uniform on them, and it’s so unbelievable to imagine that he was
taking part in events I was reading about only in my history textbooks, that he
was wounded and a bullet passed in a millimeter from his heart. After he came
back to village, he was much respected here, he was writing really great poems
and all guys in a village who tried to write were bringing their works to him
to ask for his opinion.
I feel so sad that I was so little when he died so I
don’t remember my grandfather. Now everyone could see his pictures and read about him in a
local museum, which was created by my grandma and was kept by her for a long
time. Now it’s the school who is taking care of it. As for my grandma every
second inhabitant of this village of middle and senior age was her student.
Almost everyone in the village knows her and respects her. When I think about my
grandparents I feel that it’s what is called being “a true person”, it’s when
at the end of your life you know that you lived not for nothing, that you did
create something in your life. That’s what I would call “a true life”.