To focus

Probably one of the hardest things in my life. To focus on what I am doing, to focus on work. “Procrastination”, “laziness”, “distraction”, even “tiredness” – all these notions lay on the other side of the line. On this side there is only inexorable focusing. Unfortunately for us, the line between these two worlds is so fuzzy and relative that it takes only one second to find dozens of excuses why we’ve just found ourselves at the “distraction” part. I worked out at gym so much yesterday so by body is sore today (means I’m staying in my bed till noon); There is only half an hour left before I have to go to the meeting. Half an hour is not enough to complete this serious task (means I’m not going even to start working on it); I’ve made awesome pictures at our last party, let’s have a short look at them! (means I’m giving up with my writing and till the end of the day I’m checking about 100 new pictures from the party plus other 1000 old pictures on my computer that I found accidentally); My best friend has just told about her problems with mom, I feel so bad for her (means Even though I talked to her three hours ago, I’m still upset and I’m still watching stupid TV-shows (hey, she is my best friend!). And the best one (endless procrastination) – I’m so hungry, I can’t work anymore! - (after having some food) – Oh, I’m so sleepy now after this delicious lunch! – (after having a nap) – Oh, it’s already dark outside and I’m tired! I’ll do everything tomorrow morning, cause I’ll be refreshed after so much sleep… - (in the morning) – It’s so cold, I don’t want to leave my bed. It’s so cloudy, and I’m not in a good mood. And… damn it, I’m so hungry!

To be continued.

It seems that I just need a little bit more time (may be, just one hour), a little more forces, a little more sleep, etc. It seems so. Well, sometimes it’s really inconvenient to be so honest with myself. I just need a little more will. To close all these pictures and TV-show pages opened on my computer, to make myself come to the bathroom in the morning and wash my face with cold water, and to use every ten minutes for doing things that are important for me (even if there are only 10 minutes left). To be efficient whatever the weather is outside. Yesterday while procrastinating I found this phrase: Opportunities fructify only if they are pollinated by faculties and defended my desires. So I would add and if they are cultivated by concentrated, hard work.

We like pitying our minds and our bodies and tend to forgive them way too much (life is about pleasures, right?). But there is always a risk to end up with being depressed and unsatisfied with your life because while enjoying your “pleasant distractions” you didn’t have a chance to make your dreams true. Well, unless you are a pure hedonist…

P.S. I didn’t say a word about the Internet!