01/27/2013

01/27/2013

All right, I’m done with this stupid miserable part of 2012. So let’s start this as my new year started – from the blank page.

 Damn it! Why am I hungry at 11 pm?!

I have to be strong (the voice inside is seducing me with a ryazhenka in the kitchen) – there is no other way to survive this winter. I’m fed up with this cold, wind and snow. And especially with this detestable grey low sky which is making me depressed. Just survive the left part of the winter as a perfect lady and your spring will come together with your trip to America. Forbid myself to dream about it – there were too many dreams about Amsterdam.

(No! You brushed your teeth – you can’t eat any more!)

Talking to myself all the time  – sound ridiculous, but I do it all my conscious life. So in a shower came to a description of 5 most important features of “my guy”

1) responsibility

2) a skill to listen

3) intelligence

4) courage (to make decisions)

5) good sense of humour

Getting better here in terms of appearance and health, but worse in terms of mood – I REALLY need to live along, I really need to have my own (even small) place. Otherwise I’m getting irritable and unbearable, cause I don’t like to be disturbed when I don’t want to be disturbed. I know – sounds selfish, but all that necking stuff from my Granny annoys me. Well, only three days left – I have to be tolerant and nice. She lives along for 20 years. I can’t imagine that for myself – I would get mad.

So I’m shutting up because charming Jonny Depp is waiting for me in a fearful Secret Window. I will definitely live in other country.